I just don't feel like it

I don't feeling like blogging today. This blog isn't turning out the way I thought it would. I don't have a focus. I need a focus. A blog is no good without a clear focus and 'my life' isn't focused enough to focus an entire blog around.
I need to re-focus my focus.

I'm not ready for this

It's the end of April in Ontario and the temperature reached 28 degrees today.

I am not a fan of hot summer weather. Give me a cool spring day, give me a sunny fall day, even give me a cold winter day but over 27 degrees? No thanks.

I was expecting this weather to hit mid-June but not April. My run suffered this morning because of it and that really pisses me off. Along with the heat it's extremely windy today too. That combination really hurt my run. It was like running into a hot brick wall.

The sky is getting black now and it looks like a thunder storm is moving in. Great for me, but not so great for Molly who is terrified of thunder and lightning. It's going to be a long night, but at least the temperature will be in a more acceptable range tomorrow.

Pizza's here - gotta go!

Sunshine and Lollypops

In an effort to be more positive I started a new tradition last night with my husband. Each night before we fall asleep we both have to share our favourite moment of each day.

Sometimes life can just be crappy and I think we've both gotten in the bad habit of focusing on the negative lately and not thinking enough about the positive.

The best moment could be something as simple as hearing an old song on the radio, rolling the window down and singing along. I'm not looking for Comedy Central moments just the best moment we experienced in the last 24 hours. Secretly I think I will always hope that his has something to do with me, but realistically I know that is probably not going to happen as often as I want.

Today I found myself stopping along the way to think 'could this be the favourite moment of the day that I will share?'

I've got nothing on this woman

I just read an article written by a woman who ran the Boston Marathon yesterday 25 weeks pregnant. That's pretty friggin awesome.

Next time I want to skip running because I'm tried, I need to remember her.

Never a dull moment

The biggest news in my life today is that my beloved George has a tapeworm. I have just finished googling them and I probably wont sleep tonight thanks to those images.

Poor George has had a rough time these last few months. He's had pretty much every worm you could imagine living in his little belly, chomping on his innards, but through it all he has never swayed from being a sweet, happy, gentle little soul.

We're going to kick this worm's ass. Send 'em packin'. Run him outta town. Hopefully, once it's gone this will be a new beginning for Gorgeous George. Hopefully.

Run for your life

I dabble in running. I say dabble because even after sticking with it for the better part of two years, I still do not enjoy it and I am nowhere near good at it.

I tried winter running for the first time this year and learned A) it's cold in the winter! Sometimes too cold to run and B) I enjoy running in the dark.
Now it's spring and although it's wonderful to have more daylight, I do miss those night-time runs.

I am struggling to get back to being able to do 10K. I had done the 10K route twice - twice! - back in November just before all things Christmas started and since then I have not been as committed as I'd hoped and now find myself struggling to get back there. I'm happy with 10K. I feel accomplished. I feel strong. I feel successful. Until I get there again I'm not sure I will feel any of those things.

The running group I run with has a new crop of runners this spring and I'm finding it hard to fit in. I have never been a fast runner and usually I don't care, but now there are older, lager women kicking my ass and it feels horrible! Over the past few years I have been trying to train my mind to not think about the other people, to just worry about myself, but having an older, larger woman who has just joined the group sail by you is a little humbling to say the least. Is it bad that I hope she falls and suffers a minor but significant injury? Okay ,yah that's bad.

Today I am proud of myself. Today I went out and ran on my own just because I felt like it. I am going to try to do that more often. I think it will boost my fitness level but more importantly my confidence. I've always had a problem running without the group and I think that is a big factor in my inability to improve.

My husband told me the other day that sometimes he thinks I run because I have to, not because I want to. I laughed. That is exactly why I do it. I hope one day the opposite is true.

Blogging in hard work

So on my 5th day of blogging I have officially run out of topics. Who knew it would be this difficult?

I guess I live a sheltered life.

I'm exhausted today which doesn't help the creative juices flow. I had a very busy and stressful week at work and I can't seem to rebound from that.

I went to my running group this morning only out of guilt and as suspected I had a horrible run as a result. Since then, I've puttered around the house, cleaned, shopped for groceries and walked the dogs twice and now my husband and I are watching 'Milk'. I even managed to squeeze a nap in there but I'm still exhausted.

Anyway enough complaining, tomorrow I promise a riveting and thought provoking blog for all my loyal followers.